Conway's Game of Life, Java, Smoking, and Me...

Ok, I've done it again. Another Conway's Game of Life, this time in Java:

The source code can be had here. It's called Gola (Game Of Life Applet).

So, I've quit smoking. I started July 6 at 11:27pm (my last cigarette). It is going much better this time.  This is my third time.  The first two times I quit for 2+ years each time.  I know this time is my final one.  Why?  I had a "moment" where I just didn't want them anymore.

That feeling stayed, even after I failed, so I set a quit date, got the patch, got lots of pretzel sticks, and made sure I didn't sit around and drink coffee in the morning.  This is the third day, and I had to stay home today.  I felt like I had the flu and slept until 1:00pm.  I've been a vegetable and sleeping on and off since.  It's 5:33pm now, and I'm finally getting a little energy back.  I wrote a little C# program for watching the "progress" of quitting.  I was going to include the health benefits stages as stages that would appear below the timer, but I slacked.  Here's the code and benefits list.

Smoking and me...

Ok.  Woke up at 8:00am.  It took one hour to have every environmental variable twisted and re-interpreted into the phrase: You picked the wrong time to stop smoking.  At 9:06am, I rolled a cigarette and smoked it.

Even the Habitrol (like Nicroderm patches) manual...I would read happy phrases like "Congratulations!  Now that you've decided to quit smoking, you should pick a date within the next 2 - 3 weeks as your offical quit date."  Key word is within.  What my mind said:  2 - 3 weeks from now; I obviously did this wrong; I didn't prep enough; I'm not ready!; Oh fuck, where's my cigs?

I also have friends showing up the next two weekends, which equals drinking.  Probably not a good idea to stop until after they're gone.  Wife's addendum to this: well, if you buck up like a REAL MAN, and deal with it, and...

I stopped listening after that; smoke got in my eyes, which kinda hurt.